Last night I had again had a brief but strange, unpleasant dream.
Somehow I dreamed of art "occupations". I dreamed I was sleeping next to a man unknown to me in a dream and I woke up and then somehow - I can not bear to describe a strange feeling was that - but I had from the other, I somehow fell asleep next to his feet stuck in my stomach had. Not physically, I felt both his feet up in the calves on art energy or astral plane. It was very unpleasant. I tried to wake him, but he was somehow not quite with you and not to get awake, and somehow I was not quite I was myself and my perception of the environment somehow .... quite cranky. A feeling inside me set in, where I've never felt before, as though something in me that wants to take over my body, I move somehow grotesque, my limbs move, but I lead this movement is not and try to deliberately contrast to control or something to keep control, and there is a strange feeling grotesktes immateriality of half and half and half rigid movements of both me and what they want to penetrate me. The bedroom had somehow no door anymore, I knew full well there's the door, but I also felt at once that something is in me and changed my perception so I held the door that should there directly in front of me, a solid wall before my eyes. It's crazy to raise awareness to have that what I see straight and perceive, correctly and accurately know the door is where I get out of here is out of this nightmare, but the fact that I do not see any flow, no door handle - nothing! - I am incapable of action and put in this space is fixed with what's got into me, which has nothing to look at me, it's MY body, and since no other what to look for it.
Then there was a change of scene and I dreamed of somehow probably the dream of the other, my stranger, where he will drive a race car and I was part of that dream, which introduced me him his car, I was suddenly in the role of moderator with a microphone and he was a celebrated racing driver who now wants to turn his lap on the Nürburgring.
Total crazy, I hate this .. As the night had a kind of unwanted "change" stattgefunden, oder vor langer Zeit stattfand, und ich habe dieses unangenehme Gefühl in mir, in mir stecke immer noch irgendwie ein Teil oder Anteil von einem fremden Menschen in mir, als seien seine Füsse immernoch irgendwie in mir drinn stecken geblieben und ich bin nicht mehr ganz ich selbst und habe Fremdenergien in mir und meine Wahrnehmungen sind verschroben und ich sehe Wände / Hindernisse, wo aber Türen zum hindurchgehen sind...
Kurz nach dem Aufwachen heute morgen dachte ich dann spontan an diesem furchtbaren Film "Paranormal Activity" wo eine Frau von einem Dämon nachts besucht wird und stückweise sie übernimmt und wo der Film kein Happy End hat sondern schließlich der Dämon in diese Frau eingefahren ist, es ist ein schreckliches, beklemmendes Gefühl diese Träume und Filme, ich hasse das, es ist widerlich und einfach nur schrecklich....
Ich hoffe sehr, in mir steckt nichts fremdartiges drinn oder will in mich eindringen und mich verdrängen, ich will ICH sein und nicht von irgendetwas übernommen oder kontrolliert werden, ich will CLEAR sein!! ....
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